Prelude:

"my lyrics attempts to preserve emotions I feel at some point of my life...feel free to embrace its ambiguity and judge its vanity... comments are welcome: roy@nostradmsx.com..."



One-take recording from my new room. A few seconds after I pressed the record button... an airplane passed by above our house. I let the recording to capture it's departure or arrival to some new beginning. ... This song was written from the basement of forgetfulness and completed today May 08, 2009.

Castles of Snow

Does it matter if we're far?
We'll be wishing on the same star
Does it matter if I am near?
We'll be dealing with the same fear

Of losing those smiles along the way
Hold you closer than the other day
Wish that it was simpler than this

I need to find a way to let you know
that it's ok if people know
that we started from afar

I need some time to build castles of snow
and let my princess know together we'll grow
won't let the end of time go near
baby let's go, I need you right now

Here we are dancing to no song
like you're mine and I'm only yours
and my heart tells me now it's not wrong
for me to love you... all along..

and when stars go find their way
they build the sign you're on your way
I'll be here, calling your name

I needed time away to let you go
had lived with her, yet people know
that you're the one I'd been looking for

Yes, I am about to kiss you.. yet not so soon



Tattie Wants to Play

Tattie wants to play
a single game I say
where no one needs to hide

Tattie needs to stay
and finish all the way
this thing that they call life

Up above the sky
you look down and you cry
I'm sorry my child
but I haven't learned to fly

just wait a lil while
and hush now please dont cry
somebody dreams
and there I call you

....my child

Would you believe we tried
to let fate run us by
and look where we are now

Tattie worked all night
and said that we can try
to make things right

But deep down inside
Tattie wants to cry
I'm sorry my child for letting things go by

and when the tears dried down
when you run and hide
I'll make sure you'll find
my prayers in the night

Up above the sky
you look down and you cry
I'm sorry my child
but I haven't learned to fly

just wait a lil while
and hush now please dont cry
somebody dreams
and there I call you

....my child




An Unfinished Song

Here we go again
pretending we'll be ok
time and time again
we left each other's heart broken

if this is not meant to be
if trying hard is stupidity
why oh why does it hurt so bad
when i see you dont seem sad
excuses not to stay and wait
to eager to turn love to hate

I've been thinking about running away
I've been asking around what i need to say
I've been thinking about calling it a day
but my heart is begging me to stay



"... a soul mate exists somewhere... an angel waiting for her wings.. a bride waiting for her ring..."

Angel

if love drifts away
and tears start falling day by day
she's there, whispering a prayer
wandering, she's on her way

my girl, faceless bride
flowers sing, she's by my side..
angel waiting for her wings..
dont fly away too soon

and when I close my eyes
and you are not there
I'd say a prayer
Lord can you take me up
above the clouds
so I can see
angel be
my star for tonight

As years passed me by
I'm growing old without your sign
I'll wait till the end of time
for you my love till I lay dead

And when you close your eyes
and I'm not there please understand
Just look above the clouds
I will be there
Singing my prayer
ANGEL be
my star for tonight



".... the reality is that when we read the bible, we become aware of the things we ought to be doing and the sins we ought to avoid.... Prior to reading the bible, I thought I was ok... I thought I was clean... but now, I am aware that I am a sinner and that I need His guidance in my life....."

Back to Reality

I stole Your book
away from the dust
Emptied our altar
and read all about...

how you came
to learn what I am
Now You're the only one...

who understands me
and there to help me
You cry when I am down
You cry when I am down

When I found you I became a sinner
When I found you I learned I'm far from heaven

Back to reality
I'll be what I'll be
but try what You want of me
and believe in your Trinity

I want to change
but change wont want me
I want You to guide my sanity

I want to learn
how You came to Save me

When I found you I became a sinner
When I found you I learned I'm far from Heaven

Back to Reality...




Gabing Walang Gising

Mga gabing walang gising
tinig mo'y dala ng hangin
ang iyung mata'y nasa bituin
titig mo'y kay lambot sa damdamin

Sa iyo'y ako'y lumalapit
tawirin ko man ang manipis na hangin
sa iyo'y ako'y umaawit
abutin ko man ang tono ng langit

gumising ka, dumungaw ka
at ika'y maniwala pag-ibig ko'y nasa tala
ngumiti ka, at ipikit ang yung mata
at sa panalangin tayo'y magkita

at kung ika'y napagod na
sa pagbuo ng mundong buhangin
hawakan mo ang tinig ko
dalawin mo ang lungkot na tinunaw mo

Sa iyo'y ako'y lumalapit
tawirin ko man ang manipis na hangin
sa iyo'y ako'y umaawit
abutin ko man ang tono ng langit

gumising ka, dumungaw ka
at ika'y maniwala pag-ibig ko'y nasa tala
ngumiti ka, at ipikit ang yung mata;
at sa panalangin tayo'y magkita



"...hotel rwanda..."

Half the World

and when you go into your bed tonight
and when you lock and bolt your door
just take a look out in the cold and dark
and there's not enough love to go around

cause half the world hates the other half
cause half the world hates the other half
and half the world has food and guns
and there's not enough love to go around

and sympathy is all you need my friend..
and sympathy is all you need my friend
and there's not enought love to go around




Hold On

I tried to stay inside
I tried to think it over
I wished that I could die
but the Lord kept me alive
I'm dying inside

I tried to say I'm sorry
didn't mean to make you cry
Please don't go, I'd rather die
It's hard to say goodbye
Please understand

But I don't want to lose you
and I don't want it to end this way...

Hold on please don't go
time will pass away
but I'm here to stay
Hold on the sun will shine
and if it doesn't
just take hold of my hand
and hold on

remember yesterday
you used to smile
life is like a wind
just passing by

but yesterday's gone now
and I don't want it to end this way

Hold on please don't go
time will pass away
but I'm here to stay
Hold on the sun will shine
and if it doesn't
just take hold of my hand
and hold on

I tried to stay inside
I tried to think it over
I wished that I could die
but the Lord kept me alive
I'm dying inside




I Love You

I know that it's wrong
to even write you this song
You know, yeah it shows
I love you all along

You wanted to go
Look for love a piece of your soul
And here I am,
pretending to be ok

But, I know I'll hear the songs you like
and I know I'll see the stars shining up above
Yeah, I know that tears may break apart
event hough I won't listen to my heart singing...

I know that it is wrong
to even love you....I love you




I Steal Love You

Now I'll sing you a love song
I haven't sang before;
I promised you on the phone.
I hope it's not too late
and love didnt turn to hate;
Girl I'm sorry for making you wait.

Tears had fell from my eyes
the hurt I kept inside
when promises turned to lies
the night you said you're sorry
took the pains from my heart away
Girl I wish that your love could stay

so many dreams have ended
and you are a dream I couldnt reach
but now I'm here looking in your eyes
O girl...I...

I still love you
eventhough they say it's wrong
I have nothing to offer you
but I promise to be true
I'll wait for you
Through eternity I'm sure
if I could only love you
I know I'll take care of you

Now I just sang your song
Could you tell what I did wrong?




Kabadong Sintunado

Sana'y dinggin ang awit
ko'ng balibaliko
giliw di ba't ang hilig mo'y
lalaking marunong umawit
at di pangit

Kaya't akoy naglakas loob
hiya'y tinaob
nanghiram ng kuwerdas ng gitara
nag-aral pa na magtono
kahit sintunado

Para lamang mapansin mo
ako'y tumapat sa inyong bahay-kubo
sa Olonggapo

Yun pala ay nasa Maynila
Kasama mo ang iyung barkada
Naglalakwatsa

So ako'y umuwi ng bigo
naisipan ko'ng maligo
hilod ng hilod

Baka sakaling pumuti
Kinagatkagat ko aking labi
Para red lips
Dibale nang mahapdi

Para lamang matype-an mo ako'y
nagpagupit sa baklang malandi
hay kadiri, LIKOT ng daliri

Sana'y dinggin ang awit
ko'ng balibaliko
giliw di ba't ang hilig mo'y
lalaking marunong umawit
at di pangit



"..81 pts... "

Kobe

I am right here
wishing someday
we'll find a way

take me or hate me
but learn what you have to say
before you critic's eyes

We all renew
our chance to win a day or two
Dont you wish its you
who plays the game the final countdown

I am, could be..
next to break your heart
criticize me
ill throw a hole above the shock

We all renew
our chance to win a day or two
Dont you wish its you
who plays the game the final countdown



I know this song may never correct what went wrong
nor prove that we belong, but what the heck.. it's your song.

marie louise

I said enough
maybe I've said too much
and my heart beats faster
faster than my tears

You have hurt a lot
I'm ashamed I am not
capable, the one to make you dream

I've been standing outside your door
Marie Louise, my eternal serenity
I've been trying not to let you fall
Marie Louise, please don't let go
(just don't let go)

I've been afraid
Love may turn to hate
You beg for lil faith
When I closed the jealous gate

Six more days to come
Wish I could be the one
Someone to make you see
the world, the sky and it's beauty

I've been calling you on the phone
Marie Louise, didn't mean to disagree
I've been trying to forget I am wrong
Marie Louise, just don't let go
(just don't let go)

I've been treating you all so wrong
Marie Louise, hold on
Just don't let go
Just don't let go...




Moon

Tonight I will
Ride a cloud
In search for you
Sweet, hang on
Hold on tight

I love you

Wish that I could fly
And ride sky holding you
Never let the wind
Take me away(2x) from you

Tonight I dance
Out with you

Between the stars and moon
Every single breath

Whispers in my ear
I love you
Tonight I will
Hold you tight

You and me
Outro:
Uhmmmmm the moon



"....my ate lynn wrote the original version for her crush back when she was in highschool....heheh intriga...pero I liked the melody so much, I remembered it.. Unfortunately, i did not dare to go thru her diary to learn the lyrics ... I wrote my own version ....pero thank you pa rin to my ate Lynn Garcia.......... "

More Than a Friend

I thought you're just a friend when I met you
Neverthought your sweetest smile would haunt my dreams
I know you'll find it hard to believe me
I know you might not feel the same for me

If only my eyes can lie and look away
if only im brave enough to hold your hand
this song's my only way to let you know
but still my heart denies how I really feel....

I love you more than a friend
so can you be my girl?
please baby answer me
you love me..

I thought you're just a friend when I met you
Never knew that one day love will find a way
Now I'm stuck here thinking of you
wishing one day, ill find a way and tell you girl

I love you more than a friend
so can you be my girl?
please baby answer me
you love me..

Though I'm afraid to let you know
I just have to let it go...... just have to let it go..

I love you more than a friend
so can you be my girl?
please baby answer me
you love me..

Ooohoo Ohooo wooo more than a friend
Ooohoo Ohooo wooo I love you...




My Sunshine Star

Here I am
waiting from a mile
waiting for a while
just to see you smile

There you are
pretty as you are
even from a mile
Like a sunshine star

like a sunshine

another day
had passed us by
do I have to say goodbye
wait another while

another day
that I wish I could stay
do I have to go away
and miss my sunshine star

you and I should travel far away
you and I should stay together for another day
you and I should never have to be this way
but you will always be...

my sunshine star

Here I am
waiting from afar
until the end of time
just to see you smile
and be my sunshine star




Pikitmata

Nakilala ka
Puso ko'y natulala
Nalasap ko na
Ngiti mong kay ganda

hinde na nagtagal
akoy laging tulala
Hinahanap kita
nagtatanung kahit sa buwan

Nasaan ka
at ang hiwaga mong dala
may kasalanan ba?
at umiiwas ka sinta
wag naman
gusto ko lang makilala
asan ka na?

At nakausap ka
nalaman kong huli na
may mahal ka ng iba
akoy di na makahinga

Nasaan na
ang alak na sinungaling
dadamayan ka
pusoy aking lalasunin
sige lang
di na kailangan pansinin
nasaktan lang

pilit kang lilimutin
pilit na di pansinin
ngunit eto nagaantay
..sa iyong mga ngiti

Nasaan na
ang luha sa king mata
may hiwaga ba
pag nakita ka tuwina
lika na
tayo na lamang dalawa
mahal kita
mahal mo ba...?

Akong naglalambing
sa umaga ay puyat at gising
napansin mo ba?
akoy na pa praning

pinilit ba kita
iwan ang iyong ligaya
binawi ko di ba?
wag ka lang maabala

ok lang
kahit akoy masaktan
lalayu na lang
pusoy di na pakikinggan
basta lang
basta sanay tatandaan
mahal kita

Sa iyo lang puso ko
walang ibang sinasamo
wag kanang mangamba
ikaw lang nag iisa



" .. Love you all..."

ReignYanTrevon

Sure your sleepy eyes need wake
Sure the pancakes bread will break
But yeah we'll be there
But yeah we'll be there

Sure your toys will lose their heads
No one is perfect you eventually see
But yeah we'll be there
But yeah we'll be there

Yes everything is a factor
but you dont need to be a doctor
be what you want to be
be what you want to be

Hush now baby dont you cry
Everything will be just fine
This is not a lullabye

Soon your lady eyes will seek
You may learn that love is weak
But yeah we'll be there
But yeah we'll be there

And when uncle says goodbye
Fragile hands would shake somehow
You dont need to be there
You dont need to be there



" a child wanting to be an engineer... a politician...wishing time would run faster...... a grown up...falling in and out of love... learning how to tie... a tie... redundant chess moves destined to lose... a pawn of economics... inevitable need to forget the silliness of life... endless attempt to succeed... a world dictated by "them" ... revolt and "they" will call you crazy."

Understand Me

I understand me
I understand you
I understand me
what were supposed to...

are you gonna stay?
are you gone away?
pardon me i'm still working!

too long until never been afraid..

don't you think im crazy!



"..para sa iyo..."

Uulitin

Ilang ulit na ba nakalimutan
ang daraanan patungo sa buwan
Ilang gabi na ba? walang tutulugan
putikan ang iyung unan
sa lansangan

ano ba ang iyung karma
Ikaw lagi'y nasasaktan
bat ang iba'y nasa kama
mahimbing at puno ang tyan

Ilang luha pa ba ang iyung hinahamon
kailan ba aahon sa mali ng kahapon?

sa iyo ba ang iyung karma?
sinasadya ba ng Maykapal?
ba't ang iba'y may kasama?
bakit ika'y nag iisa....

sa bawat pag-asang tinutunaw ng mundo
nasasaktan tayo sa mga pangyayaring di gusto
libo libong mga tanung ka'y sakit sa ulo

ngiti ka lang kaibigan dahil hinde ka naman talaga nag--iisa
mahal ng Diyos ang mga nagdurusa dahil
ang mundong ito'y hinde para sa kanila

Hayaan mong gabayan ka Niya



" I miss my dad and my grandfather.... but am glad to have my niece"

2 Deaths and a Baby

Numb Tears and Goodbyes
The first time made me cry
from within the questions rest
wanted to put faith to test.

Dried Tears and Smiles
Didnt last for a long time
another beast made one fragile
my faith crumbles one more time.

A baby weeps to breathe and comes out
Two breathes lost from caring mouths
Our love continues to reach within
This family, we owe it all to Him.